I just rang BeLonGTo an asked them about their groups.
I was SOO nervous! My hands were shaking and my throat was completely dry!
And that's only a phonecall!!!!
I dunno how I'm gonna cope with the actual group! I'll probably faint as I walk in the door!!!
They meet on Mondays from 3-6pm in town.
The guy on the phone sounded really friendly, so that was kinda reassuring.
Ahh I'm soooo nervous!!!! And I have to wait 6DAYS!!!! 6 days of nervousness!!!
That's also 6 days where I won't have anything else on my mind and I won't get any homework done!!!!
Ugh........why has this gotta be so hard?!
But I'm glad I'm finally doing something!!
:D
Sxxxxxx
7 comments:
Ok, Calm down, you´re not next in line for the slaughterhouse, you´re just going to meet people that you can talk to about your life, people just like you, take it as a blog where the only difference is that they WILL be physically present, even though we try and reach you across the computer there´s always the distance barrier. They will be there for you, we are here for you, we care about you, I love you, should worry about nothing. Hardest part is asking for help, now comes the easy part.
Take a lot of care, and don´t overly worry about it, I know, I work in one of those things, so just relax and think about your homework. You are so much stronger than you think you are.
I love you
Me
Another thing you should realize is that you haven't signed your life over to the organization. You can go to the meeting. If you decide it's not for you, you don't have to stay or come back again. You can go to several meetings. If you ever decide it's not for you, you don't have to keep going. So you don't need to worry about it.
Apart from that, a more general comment. Like a lot of bloggers, you seem nearly desperate to find a close friend, "someone special." Unfortunately, you can't make it happen. All you can do is be among people. And it's best to be doing things you like for their own sake, because that way you're more likely to find someone compatible. The cure for loneliness isn't going out and finding some to cure it. The cure is to be busy with worthwhile (for you) things. Meeting new friends is a by-product if what you're doing puts you in contact with others. Patience is key.
Too bad I wasn't with you I could catch you if you faint and then we can have lots of fun together ;)
lol ok being serious, just take it easy and be calm I'm sure you will get through it and if you want you can always talk to me to distract your self for a while.
either IM or Ping me (see my blog about the Pingbox)
The first step is always the hardest but you just made it so right there is already something to look forward to.
I may have said it before but sometimes the universe just lines up in your favor. Especially after cases of serious doubt...
You have just taken the hardest step and your still standing. Even the name of the group [BELONG] has a posative ambience about it - hope it all goes well for you. Good luck.
Kindest regards Stef.
hahahaha. perfectly understandable about the nervous phonecall - i still get nervous calling to anyone i'm not familiar with! i had to phone students like to my research, and boy - i was shaking for the first few mins!
u're doing well there and this is going to be the first step to a bright bright future. :) u know what, this is not going to be easy, but the fact that as crazy as it all seems to be in your world, yet you found the courage and strength to hang on to every bits of will power left and reach out is truly inspiring, S! :) you should be sooooooooooo proud of yourself, because i really am.
lots and lots of love! A.
You will want to run, not go, make the weirdest excuses to yourself why going is not a good idea.
You can do this. Everything is so much harder in our heads! Trust me on this!
Give it an honest chance once you arrive. You will be shaking all the way thru, wanna hurl everything you have eaten in the last year, and pass out from lack of air in the room......
Big Breath! Everyone in that room, understands what you are going thru, everyone....
Imagine having a IRL person to call on your cell, and met when you are having a bad case of the mental breakdowns! A shoulder to cry on, when you need to loose some tears. A hand to hold to keep you from blowing away during the invisible times.
I can see no down side from at least trying. If they are all a bunch of not-nice-at-alls, there is no law saying you have to go back to them.
giant hugs!
Biki
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