Results and College!!!!!!!!! 2:14 AM

So,

On Wedensday, the 18th of August I recieved my Leaving Cert(final exams in high school) results! I can tell you now that I have never been so nervous in my life!! It was worse than actually doing the exams!
So I went back to my, now old, school and waited in line to recieve my results. I went into my vice-principal and sat down with him and he handed me my certificate. I was so nervous i took about 30 seconds before I looked down at the piece of paper which would pretty much decide the next 4 years of my life!
This is what I saw!

Irish - B2(ordinary level)
Maths - B2(honours level)
Chemistry - B2(honours level)
Physics - B2(honours level)
English - B2(honours level)
Music - B1(honours level)
French - C2(honours level)

Thats 470 points! The whole system is marked out of 600. And 470 is judged as very good considering the average points for the country is arounf 340-350!
I was soooooooooooooo over the moon! More than I dared to hope for!!
That put me back in with a chance to go to Trinity College! Trinity is the BEST college in the country and with points like mine I had a chance!!! I had originally given up hope for it all the way back in February!
Now I just had to wait until the 23rd of August to see what college offers I get and see if one of them is from Trinity College!!!
I went out that night with some friends to celebrate! It was a great night! One of the best i've had in a long time! :D

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Today was the day I was waiting for! 'Offers' day!
Offers were posted online on my CAO account(CAO is a liason system that colleges use to offer places) from 6am onwards! Needless to say that I was up at 6am waiting for the offer to come in.
I went onto the website at 6am only to find that the server had crashed due to almost every student in the country trying to check their account at the same time! lol
So eventually it came back up at 630am and I check my account...............I GOT OFFERED A PLACE IN TRINITY COLLEGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was the course I wanted the most! Its a specialized science course. I never thought that I would get it in a million years! :D But I did!
I am now a Trinity College student! One of the top 50 universities in the world, THE best in the country!
I'm so happy right now its riddiculous! :D

I should be starting on the 23rd of September! I cannot wait!!!!! And to top it of its the most accessible college, transport-wise, for me! So it'll be easy going in and out from my house!
I am over the moon!!!!!!

Now I can just relax and worry about nothing for the next month!!!! :D

*Victory dance*


I am now a college student! :D

Sx

Quick update! 4:19 PM

Heya guys!

Just a quick update seen as I havnt given any in AGES!! :P

Rehearsals for 'Pirates of Penzance' are going fantastically! :) it's going to be amazing!!!! Like, seriously, probably the best show I've ever been involved in! :)
Can't wait for opening night! :)

Also, went to a friends bday party last night. A nice night. Bit boring, but when the hot straight guy got his cock out (jokingly :P) I cheered up :P


Also, I got DailyBooth! So I should be taking regular pics I hope.
If you want the address just ask and I'll pm you! :)

Okies!

Talk laters!!!!

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Best friend..... 3:46 PM

I need a best friend.
I think it's a necessity in life really. Ever since I realized my 'best friend' was a homophobic fucktard(sorry for the language) I havnt had that one constant person in my life.
Everyone needs that someone who knows you in and out. Who you can go to anytime and just hang out.
I've lost that.
I need it back.
This sucks.

Sxx

Exams, Pride, and becoming 'gayer'?? 3:04 AM

So,

I finished my final exams(my leaving cert) last thursday! You cannot imagine how happy I am!!!! I honestly thought this day would NEVER come!! Lol
Now I just need to wait for my results in August and then....COLLEGE!!!! I can't wait for college! I really hope it'll be a turning point in my life! :)
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I went to the Dublin Gay Pride Festival on Saturday. I went by myself cause I didn't have anyone to go with. So I followed the parade through the city. There were over 22,000 people IN the parade!! That's amazing considering only 5,000 were in it last year! And then there were over 100,000 people watching it!
The bigest Irish pride festival ever! I'm so happy I went. I stayed for the whole parade and went to watch a bit of the outdoor party in the city. I met a few people from BeLonGTo there as well. B2 had a big part in the parade. They had a 'rainbow dance' thing. Lol.
Here's a pic of them with their giant rainbow sticks they had on their backs while dancing:






I talked to a few of them for about 20mins and then they kinda drifted away. So I left. I saw a good few people I knew in the parade! People I never knew were gay! So that was nice!





So I was happy I went to at least watch the parade! Next year I hope to fully experience the pride festival with all it's aftershow parties! :)
Here's a pic of a very funny side of a float in the parade! :P






On another note, I think i'm becoming 'gayer'?? Lol!
I find myself REALLY looking at guys lately! Like, perving at almost EVERY opportunity! Lol Wierd?! Like, I used to have a pretty equal balance between liking girls and guys, but now it's 90%-95% guys! Not that I'm complaining! :P Gay pride was just a HUNK fest!!! Lol!!





Hello muscles...:)





The guy in the middle....*drool* :P

I also went to see 'Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time' today. And I have to say that Jake Gyllenhaal is astonishingly sexy in it! To be honest I have never really seen what others were on about when they talk about how hot he is, but now.....omg! :O :P
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So yeah, exams over, summer beginning and now I'm getting 'gayer'! Summer will be interesting!! :P
Hopefully it will be fun :)


Thanks for reading!

Peace,


Sxxxxxxx

Alone... 5:07 PM

Once again I find my self pretty much alone.
I look back over my posts and it looks like I have come a long way, but I really havnt. Nothing that bears any significance anyway.

Yes, over the past few months I have come to accept who I am. I've come out to my mum. I made that first trip to BeLonGTo. But I am still here in bed think to myself that I 'still' have noone. No friends to talk to when I need them the most.
I have "aquaintances". That is all. Many many aquaintances. No true friends. I thought I might be making friends in B2 but it seems as though Patrick(my ex) has destroyed any chance of that happening. The people who I was trying to make friends with are also his friends and their attitude has changed towards me and I know it's because of him.

I just keep thinking to myself what if I hadn't lost my best friend back in september. For those of you who don't remember. I tried coming out to my very best friend and before I did I tried to see what his reaction would be. It turns out it would have been a bad one. I asked him(in the context of a conversation about a gay guy in a show I did) how would he feel if I was gay? He responded hestitantly by saying that I would still be his friend but he would treat me differently. You cannot imagine how heartbreaking it was to hear that. To, in that instant, lose someone who you thought was your absolute beat friend. And with him I lost others.
And now I'm back in that position with no one to talk to. No one's shoulder to cry on.
My life really does suck. Even the people who are in the show I'm doing are a bit assholish.
So I don't even have that to escape to.

I need help.

I need a release.

Ugh...

FML


S

Exams, exams, more exams..... 11:49 AM

Ok, seriously.

I'm going to go insane.

I'm in the middle of my Leaving Certificate exams at the moment. These are my final exams for secondary school(highschool) and then............COLLEGE!!!


I've already had English papers 1 and 2, and maths paper 1. English went great, maths went okayish :/
I've got maths paper 2 tomorrow and then Irish paper 1. Maths is going to be awful. My school is part of 24 pilot schools in the country trying out a new maths syllabus. It's soooooo different to previous years! So we have literally ZERO past papers to look back on. So we really have no idea of what type of questions will come up :(
Sure we know what topic will come up, but they're all soooo huge! Statistics, co-ordinate geometry, vectors, shit load of triganometry, and probability. So........FML!
Lol.
Irish will be a fine. Don't have to worry about that. That's a little stress off.

Here's my timetable if you want to have a look:

Wed 9th June - English paper 1
Thurs 10th June - English p2
Fri 11th June - Maths paper 1
Mon 14th June - Maths paper 2
- Irish paper 1
Tues 15th June - Irish paper 2
Wed 16th June -French
Thurs to Sun - Break
Mon 21st June - Physics
Tues 22nd June - Chemistry
Wed 23rd June - Break
Thurs 24th June - Music
FREEDOM!!!! :P

So as you can see there are soo many! :'(
Each exam is between 3 and 3.5 hours long.

Ugh!!!!
Anyways, I'm soo looking forward to finishing! The Dublin Gay Pride Festival is on two days after I finish!!!! I'm soooo going!! Lol.


It's gonna be amazing! Hopefully we'll get good weather for it though! :)

I'm also rehearsing for a show in the Irish national concert hall all summer and it'll be on in september. Then I've got another show in october, another one in november, and then another one on december! All in the national concert hall.
I may have taken on a little much?? Lol

Can't wait for college!!!!

Just need to get through all these exams in one piece! I have NEVER been soo tired in my entire life. These exams are unhealthily stressful! If you don't get your leaving cert you CANNOT get into any kind of remotely repectible college!
So no pressure! :/

Anywhoos!

Wish me luck!! :)

Sxxxxxxx

Auditions auditions auditions.... 2:34 PM

How's things in blogland???

I for one have been TOTALLY stressed with exams!!! It's ridiculous how many exams we have in Ireland compared to England and america :( grr!

Anywhoos, I had an audition for the chorus of 'the pirates of penzance' in the Irish national concert hall. I got in and rehearsals are going great! It's in September but rehearsals have started two weeks ago.

I also had an audition for beauty and the beast in the same venue. It's going to be a very big production! I auditioned for a part this time and it went well! I've worked with the musical director and the director before and they both said that my voice has improved leaps and bounds! So that was lovely to hear!!
I had to do some dialogue as well but as I had previously rehearsed with my american professor(vocal coach) an American accent. So I used an American accent but they told me to use a cockney English accent. I can do a cockney accent but all that would come out was american! Lol! They understood cause I had rehearsed American. So I hope I'll get a callback! :)

So, so far I have I have 'pirates' in september, 'la traviata' in October, a variety show in November, and 'beauty and the beast' in December(all in the national concert hall so that's a big venue!). I may be a bit busy!! Lol
Can't wait!!!!
:D

Anywhoos, exams are in 3weeks so I need to get my mind off all these shows! Lol

Love!!


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